||[Oct. 13th, 2006|06:09 am]
well i havntposted in a while..gah sooo much has happened. but first i think i need to say ...THAT THERE IS A CANOE POLO TEAM!!!!! um im so very fucking happy about that. my senior mate ayla, i asked her to get together a team and she told me to choose a team and then she started to put down my mate who like polo infronmt of me, so i walked out. also she sed ohh i mite have time to play a few games, it just doesnt work like that, if shes gunna play she has to turn up to practices just like the rest of us. she is not going to put down people anymore i cant5 take it she is a control freak.
im back at solway but just for one more term then i am out of there and going to a normal, extreemly large school in `the tpwn i live in. no more late night train rides to the middle of know where and staying at boarding school for a whole pathetic week.
people at my school well two girls in particular are reallly upseting me. forst there is rachel...she likes koRn and shyt like me. shes fucking awsome. we drank each others blood once...well she like waggs lunch..like at my school we havelunch all together in the dining room its like a hot meal well anyway she doesnt go...i diidnt used to eather, but i was like mentioning where is rachel and this chick sed that shes bulimic, and i was like OMFG no way this cant happen, like shes not skinny but shes not fat either. this chick was like yeah heard her puking in the bathroom i was like no..then when i saw rachel i asked how come shje never comes to lunch and in a casual way she sed "i cant be fucked". i was like ooook. she doesnt know that i have a tiniest crush on her...but i do and i wish i could help her.
then theres mimah, shes like in my year and we are good mates, shes been taking diet pills, like 3 after each meal and like she told me one but i have proof thats shes taking more but the thing is that she doesnt eat at meal times, she just has a mouthful and says shes full..:-(. then she was crying saying how her bestfriend doesnt understand (her best friend is soooo naturally skinny) and then shes like ...
mimah: how are you?
mimah: are you still cutting?
mimah:well when you last cut?
me" ummm i dont know..i cant memba
mimah: ohh tell me mahala.
me: two days
mimah: oh god. (glances at wrist) um wow..show me ur wrist (it was just scars)
mimah: its really cool mahala
me: no its not
mimah: where do you cut?
me: ...my thigh
mimah: ohh show me show me
me: no! im all well concious
mimah:um im not gunna judge you or anything mahala
me: i know but i just cant show you
mimah: ok then.
um its like summer...and relihot and i hate it because like even though i dont cut my wrists anymore..i still cover them around ppl at home. even though my rents know they are there..i just dont show them. i dont know why...well my mom shes just like blah sooooo fucking pathetic about everything. um yeah....CANOE POLO SEASON!!!!!!
heh im really excited...:-0